No no, I don't mean that you guys are ignoring me... just the opposite, you guys always bring me support and cheer me up when I'm low. I'm upset with my research and specially with the professor I'm working with. Okay, I've never talked about my research in this blog but I think I can't avoid it anymore....today my tolerance has reached its lowest point, if I don't express it here I'm going crazy!
The professor who I'm working with since 5 months ago is a very respectful and well known researcher in our field (top 15 economists in the world). So when she offered me to work with her on a paper I was the happiest student ever. Unfortunately being famous involves a lot of thing, she's extremely busy on conferences, interviews, newspapers articles, etc. As consequence, I hardly can find her to talk about our paper. I insist with emails and calls. Every time I try to find her, I get stressed out. I called her last week and she asked me to call her back on Monday morning, so I did. But when I called her, she asked me again to call her in 10 min, but when I called her back, nobody answer the phone anymore. I felt terrible!!!!! my stress level has reached its peak since I began to work with her. I couldn't contain my emotions and I began to cry badly. I've put so much effort for this project, I've tried my best to do everything fast and well. But the result doesn't depend on me alone, I need her help but she's so busy. I know that she likes me and she wants to work with me, otherwise she wouldn't have offered me at the first place. But she's always so busy and my project will never be her priority 1.
I really don't know what to do.... because I'm in a point of my research that I can't move further alone and I can't wait much longer either. The semester is ending and I haven't written any single paper yet.. oh....what am I going to do?
What do you guys do when you feel desperate, impotent and totally stressed out?
okay back to eats. I'll just post photos today, I'm really not in mood in writing more details about it.
I went for a spin class trying to feel better. The monitor worked appropriately this time. Here's the stat
Duration: 52 min
Average Heart Rate: 139
Calories burned: 305
And the last thing, today's my bf's birthday. Unfortunately I can't celebrate it with him... I can just wish him Happy birthday by phone and here. So sad for him and for me!
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