November 28, 2008

"lonely" thanksgiving.

Yesterday I took a day off from work as to celebrate Thanksgiving. I went to a two hours yoga class in the morning, spend the afternoon reading "Eat, Pray and Love" and baking the dessert for the dinner. I and Savannah went to a friend's home for thanksgiving dinner. They were all Chinese grad students here, people that I barely know. I don't know how to describe the feeling of spending a thanksgiving dinner, which you normally spend with your loved ones, family, bf or close friends, with people that you don't know. They were great people and were really kind to us, but even though I didn't enjoy much...... Maybe I shouldn't say this because I should be thankful that they invited me, because my alternative was to stay at home alone and be miserable. But as I think this blog is to express my true feelings, I must be honest to myself. It was really a weird feeling....from one side my mind told me that I should enjoy time with my new friends, but at the other hand, my heart let me know that I was sad deep inside. I missed a lot my family and specially my boyfriend, because most of people of last night were couples, some of them are getting married soon. I wondered why my other half was not here with me and enjoy every special day, or just every single day together. Why I had to feel so lonely when I have a wonderful boyfriend. Why why why??? I knew all these answered but somehow at that precise moment I just ignored all those rational answers. I just wished my bf was here with me and we could celebrate thanksgiving together, just two of us, it would be hundred times better than being with a bunch of people who are close to me but at the same time feels like thousands miles away.
Anyway, we got back home around 12.30pm, so late for my usually bedding schedule. So, I couldn't fall into sleep until 1.30am thinking all above.

Okay, enough complaint for a day that I should be thankful. Well....I do feel thankful of having my family healthy, happy; to have met my important other half and to be cared and loved in such a way that I feel like a princess even though we've been together already seven years; to have met Savannah who has become my best friend here in US, who I can talk with when I feel stressed out, when I just need someone to listen to me, or just being with her is great.... that's what a truly friend is, right? You don't have to hide yourself, you don't have to pretend anything, just be you; I'm also thankful that I'm here doing what I am so passion about even though I have tough and stressful time, but nobody says that doing what you like would be easy, if not, surpassing all your difficulties in order to pursue your happiness makes the whole process more valuable; and finally I'm so thankful to have all you guys here to read my poor English writing, my random emotional thoughts and cheer me, support me, or just let me know that you're there for me when I'm not feeling well, I really appreciate everything you guys do! Thank you all!!!
Now back to eats. Breakfast was
  • 1/2 cup old wessex
  • 1/2 cup almond breeze
  • 1/2 banana
  • 1/2 apple
  • 1 tbsp flax meal
  • 1 tbsp wheat berries
  • 1 spoon of PB
I had the other half of apple while I was preparing the oats.

Yummy as always! (I was looking for recipe to make the dessert)
Lunch was leftover sauteed mushroom, cauliflower and chickpeas with some rice and a seaweed tomato soup.Dessert was ricotta with apple sauce.I was soooooooooo happy to have made this wonderful dessert (or maybe petit fours). I didn't stick to any particular recipe, if not I read a couple and managed to create my own with what I had in pantry. I'll call it Choco-nuts petit fours.
I've never though the mix of coconuts flakes with nuts could be that good!!! mmmmmmm.......... this is really really delicious!!!! Perfect for afternoon tea or after meal coffee.
I don't know you guys, but when I create a new recipe and it works out better than I thought, I get so excited!!!!
I snacked a pita bread with some cottage cheese. (no pic since I had it in the kitchen when I listened to Savannah how great was my new creation)
Then dinner at friend's home was roasted chicken, baked spicy fish, seafood cake and rice. I only liked the roasted chicken so I had 3 big pieces with rice (but I did have a bite of everything). After dinner we played some games and have a lot of nuts and fruits (grapes and pineapple). Sorry, no pics!

This morning I woke up extremely hungry at 7.30 am (Booo, only 6 hours of sleep). I thought I ate a lot last night, but maybe it wasn't that satisfying. Anyway, I had a big bowl of my favorites
  • 1/2 cup old wessex
  • 1/3 cup almond breeze
  • 1/2 banana
  • 1/4 cup wheat berries
  • 1/4 cup cottage cheese
  • 1/2 cup blueberries
  • 1 tbsp flax meal
This was delicious as always....however not enough for my hunger. So I first had 1/2 pita bread and 10 min later had the other half. hahahha....... this is my new favorite snack (I've just noticed that I get more satisfy with savory snacks than sweet ones. Well, I'm not a sweet kind of person) And two heavy cups of coffee, because I need to be totally woke up since I'm planned working hard today.

Okay. Bye for now! My plan is work at least 7 hours today. Hope you guys don't have to work and just spend some quality time with your family.

11 comments:

HangryPants said...

I think it's totally natural that you would feel "alone" even though you were with new friends on Thanksgiving. It's a holiday all about family and you missed yours. I think you did a great job trying to enjoy it and getting out there and not staying home in misery. :D

VeggieGirl said...

Ahh, hang in there, girl - try to stay positive!!

On the bright side, I love those Choco-nuts petit fours!! Delish.

Krista said...

Sorry to hear that yesterday was a bummer for you! :(

You dessert recipe looks fab!

imadedinner said...

(((hugs)))!!!

eatingbirdfood said...

Aww... I'm sorry that you felt alone on Thanksgiving, but hang in there!!!

Your Choco-nuts petit fours looks amazing.

Joanna said...

i'm sorry you didn't have a nice thanksgiving!! i think it is about being with people you love, so i can see why you felt lonely. at least today is friday and you don't have to be sad about it anymore.

your dessert looks delicious!!!

ttfn300 said...

aw, sorry it wasn't the best day for you. But the important thing is you did your best, recognized all you have to be thankful for... there wll be many a special days with loved ones :)

yummy choconut desert!

Santa Barbara Dreaming said...

Isn't it weird how lonely you can feel even though you're surrounded by people? Sometimes being surrounded by random people can make you miss your loved ones even more. Hang in there Coco! I hope you get to see your family and BF very soon. I live so fat away from my parents too (they are in Japan) so I know how you feel! But it just makes it extra special when you DO get to see them!
BTW your baked goods look amazing. I love coconut! mmmmmm

seeleelive (for the love of peanut butter) said...

we both LOVE old wessex. and i have to say that tomato seaweed soup is right up my alley. i think those chocolate petit fours look So great!!!
have you ever heard of people feeling lonely even in huge groups and cities? that is totally natural- i agree with Heather. although you may feel some shame associated with it, family is #1. i think i'd be lonely as well! in fact, it is probably expected! i hope u have a good weekend,

get some sleep!

runningwithfood.com said...

We are here for you, girl! It's completely understandable for you to feel lonely ... especially when you have been reading about everyone's travels to be with family over the holiday.

To be honest, I think my crankiness lately is because I'm also sad that I wasn't able to see my family for Thanksgiving. But at the same time, I am thankful that I have Devin's family near, plus so many other wonderful things in my life!

I am so proud of you for going with Savannah to celebrate the holiday ... even if it was with strangers. It's always better to be around someone, then no one at all! :)

just me said...

sorry to hear you were feeling alone but i think it's normal to feel like that even when you are with other company other than your family. chin up babe!

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