December 9, 2008

not talking mood!!!!

sorry to my boyfriend, I hang up his call this morning when he was trying to consoled me about my research related stress. I know that I shouldn't, but I just feel not want to talk to anyone right now. Maybe because I'm not sure he would understand the kind of stress that I'm going through.
Last night I woke up at 3 am and couldn't fall into sleep until 5.30. Suddenly my urgency to have something done invaded me last night and I got panic! I know this is not going to help me to solve the problem, but somehow I can't help to not get into that vicious cycle. My stress management ability is very low today.... hope it get better soon. Otherwise I'll offend my bf and you guys for reading over and over again about my issues. Sorry dear readers, I swear I'd love to present you a more optimistic me everyday. It's just I've never been under so much stress before..... not that I can remember. And the fact that I'm alone here is not helping. So, once again, I ask you to bear with me. I promise I'll try to get better soon.

Food was some kind of random today, my focus was loose or obsessed with what productive thing I need to do.
Breakfast combo
  • 1/2 cup oats
  • 1 cup almond breeze chocolate
  • 1/2 banana
  • 1/4 cup egg white
  • 2 tbsp wheat berries
  • cinnamon + vanilla
  • 2 tbsp ricotta
  • 1/2 cup blueberries
it was a very chocolate oatmeal, needless to say it was delicious. I also had a thick slice of homemade bread and coffee.Mid-morning snack: another coffee (lack of sleep) and more breadLunch: lentil stew + spinach + broccoli + tofu.Dessert: cup of ricotta with cinnamon and 1 slice of banana loaf.I had to go to campus this afternoon so I packed an apple and 1 package of BB.Back home, frustrated of not having done anything productive today, I had 1 chocolate cookie (argentinian classic snack: alfajor. Basically two chocolate cookies with nutella in between and covered by more chocolate) 15 min later another argentinian chocolate bon o bon
Dinner: miso seaweed egg soup and baked grits with sauce and cheese.Dessert: fage with frozen strawberries and wheat berries.
I guess I'll work a little more to compensate my unproductive day!
I hope I can get more positive perspective tomorrow and be able to talk again.

20 comments:

VeggieGirl said...

Oh girl, I'm praying that things get better for you soon!! Pleeeease try to stay positive!!

Krista said...

Sorry you're still feeling so stressed out!

I do like your leaf plate!

Keep smiling!

ttfn300 said...

deep breaths to relax, maybe some calming tea, and a good night's sleep. Tomorrow is a new day to conquer!

Erin of Care to Eat said...

coco, you're a strong woman and you're doing a great job. I'm proud of you. Your work is really challenging. Unproductive research days happen! What if you didn't try to make up for the lost time today, but just started fresh tomorrow?

imadedinner said...

(((HUGS)))

Balance, Joy and Delicias! said...

Erin: I'm going to do what you say. I'm going to bed now, hopefully tomorrow I will wake up with a positive mind. Thanks everyone for the support, I really appreciate it.

alicia said...

Poor Coco. :( Don't worry, this is just a phase and will pass. It's definitely not easy dealing with such frustration but things can only get better. Hang in there! :)

Meg said...

Hang in there girl! It has to get better! It just has to! HUGS!

Erica said...

I'm so sorry you have so much stress! Do you get a break around Christmas time? I sure hope so ! Eats look good! I think I've head seaweed once. I need to try it again!

Joanna said...

those baked grits look awesome. that's such a creative idea.

i'm stressed because of school. don't worry. things will get better!!

just me said...

ah, i hope things get better tomorrow. you may feel like you're heading down a hill, but just remember, you gotta go back up to get to the top! yay!!!

Anonymous said...

sorry for having made you feel not so good. In fact what ttfn300 said was quite useful, deep breathing will help to relax, and will help to release the stress. manytimes we are hiding our stress, that was very bad for the health, we need to face it, and feel that, and accept that, and need to find some place to let our stress out.......if not , our body will have problem.........
I have learned some useful thing in this speical class, I would like to share all the informaiton with you.
I will send you books, and my notes later:)
have a good night. relax, and have a good mood, little girl.....deep breathing when you feel depress or stress, when you feel uncomfortable in your chest, keeping do it in 10 minutes more or less..............Hope you have a good mood when you wake up in the morning of tomorrow.

Juliet said...

Awww. *hug*

Pearl said...

*hugs*

i'm sorry you're so stressed! and don't feel bad, we all have our off days. it'll get better :) don't worry!

Maria said...

Sorry you are stressed!! I hope you have a better day today!

Madison said...

We don't mind hearing about it! Hope things start looking up for you!!

Your oats look scrumptious as always though =)

The Blonde Duck said...

I hope you feel better soon!

magpie said...

hang in there! blogging is a great place to vent - no worries.

Your grits sure do look yummy though!

Santa Barbara Dreaming said...

I'm sorry to hear about your day. I'm sure your boyfriend will understand. It must be so hard, dealing with all the professors and all the stress :( I hope that a good's night sleep is on your way soon, girlie! We'll be here for your support! Don't feel bad about 'complaining,' sometimes its so therapeutic to let it all out!
mmmmm miso soup!

HangryPants said...

I am sorry you are so stressed about this research assignment. I have been there and know exactly what you mean. When I was a lawyer I was beyond stressed 99% of the time. You feel like no one else understands. All I can say, is that it's not worth torturing yourself for. It doesn't make the stress go away and it doesn't make your work any better. Good luck!

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